Kelli Anne(:

2011,

you sucked until August. fighting with my parents, my now ex, and my best friend all the time.
then august came, and i met him. :) hehe.
ever since August, I can honestly say I’ve never been happier with my life. New boyfriend, new friends, no fights, and new me.
2012, I’m excited to see what you have in store for me, with graduation, a car, and everything else.. I hope its everything that I’ve been looking forward too.

I find it funny that you hate me.. I never did anything to you, except stand up for myself. Sorry you were too much of a dumbass to realize what you put my through. Have a great fucking life<3 

I thought it would take me forever to get over this, but it only took me a week…

As much as I try to hide it, it’s killing me.

That pit in your stomach feeling.. I hate this, I really dont know what to do. I love him, I really do, but I don’t know if I can fight anymore. I’m tired, and it hurts.. It’s not worth losing my family. But I don’t want to lose him…

Coming back from camping and seeing what it would be like to be able to actually have our families together and have us together without the fights and dirty looks.. it felt amazing. But I know that would never happen.

Maybe things will change in time, but for right now I just don’t see the point in fighting. Not only with my family, but with him. I’m tired of this feeling. I need to figure myself out.

Everyone says that the hurt will only last for a little while, but I dont see that happening. We’ve been together for so long, that he’s a part of me now. Not seeing him has killed us. I know that if we could just hang out like we used to, we would be happy. But it’s just not gonna happen with my dad.

And, I have absolutely no one to talk to about this because obviously my family are gonna say to leave him cause they don’t like him, and the only other person has pros and cons of both outcomes.

Sometimes, I just want someone to tell me what to do… Someone to talk to. Someone to get everything out to. Someone to just hold me as I sit here and cry. But I don’t seem to have that in anyone anymore. I’m either being a baby, don’t wanna put my problems on them, or they are too busy…

It’s so hard by myself..

I love you.

Ha, dumb bitch.

hey,

fuck off. Ha.
If you were really worried about it, you’d ask me.